new consciousness

Now that I am in my mid-20s, I feel many aspects of my life are completely different. Say's every millennial in their twenties who've realized the same thing. These last few months of 2018 have made HUGE impacts on how I view myself, situations, and how I handle those situations. I've been pushing myself out of my comfort zone for the last 3 years or so and I feel as if it has prepared me for where I'm at in my life right now.

Let me fill ya' all in.

I've been living with my sweet boyfriend for 3 months now. An experience I never thought I would...well, experience. Everyone told me how it would be. But until you experience something for yourself, you can't possibly imagine what it's like. I'm currently interning for a supervisor position while also balancing online graduate school to pursue a career in Applied Behavior Analysis. Another reality I never thought I would want for my future. I'm "trying" to continue to push my creative side more, such as my blog that you are reading as I type this. I don't want to just share my "outfit of the day," but rather all the thoughts that get collected in my mind.

Another aspect that has had major changes is in my friendships: what I need from them and how I communicate with people. I used to be very quiet, shy and went along with what my friends wanted to do. But lately, I've come to realize that I need so much more than what I accepted as friendship. I need to find myself a karass of souls that don't cancel plans on me last minute, that don't side comment or subtweet their passive aggressive issues with me, who don't leave me out of conversations, and who are unconditionally there for me as I am for them. Don't get me wrong, I love my friends. But where I am right now, I need more stimulating conversation and growth. Also, I'd LOVE to find a girl gang that loves to dress up for no reason and who religiously follows Rooster Teeth. If you're out there, hit a girl up!

This new consciousness I've been feeling as left me starving for something more. The scary part is is that I need to be the one to go out and figure out what that is. So far, I've been doing something new and out of my bubble every month. In January, I moved out of my parents' place and moved in with my boyfriend. In February, I hiked Mission Peak at 4 am (something that's been on my bucket list for 3 years). And in March last month, I went to a karaoke bar and took the next step in my internship position. I'm not sure what I'll do in April, but I know it's going to be both terrifying and exciting.

A quick thanks for the few that do read my blog, like actually read every word I write. I don't blog for the sake of followers, but as an accountability to myself in sharing what I care about in hopes of connecting with others. You are all beautiful.

K. xx