For the past several weeks, I have been arguing with myself about what I want this blog to be. What I want it to represent and how I want to continue in sharing my words and photos. If you've been following my blogging journey and have kept up with the many platforms and name changes, then you sort of have an idea of how I blog. But recently, I have reached an impasse.
For those that don't know me, I like to be as transparent in who I am online as well as in person. I don't claim to have a different personality when I post on my Instagram. My friends would call me out so quickly, it would be an embarrassing mess. My words are stories of how you get to know me, how you'll understand the meticulous wonders of my mind. My photos are a visual presentation of my journey and life. And I recognize that my style of writing and photography can be very intimate and deep, sometimes even too much.
This is where I am torn.
I don't want my social media presence to hinder my professional career presence. You see, I work for a great company where we help families who have children that have autism. They are not aware of my social media presence nor the kinds of intimate photos and words I have posted in the past. The reason I have stopped sharing that part of my life is that I want to pursue a career in becoming a Board Certified Behavior Analyst (which I am currently in grad school for). I'm honestly terrified that when I'll apply to my future job, they'll Google search my name and not be too keen on what they may find.
However, I don't want this fear to keep me from sharing and posting what I want to blog about. I have been talking to my closest confidants and they all noted the same thing. They suggested that I create a pseudonym for my online presence. After much debate, it appears to be the most logical conclusion. Although sadly, I don't think I can change my domain name and I do not want to create another blog platform and completely start all over again. So I've decided to keep this blog but change some features, looks, and how my blog can be found with the use of my new pseudonym -- which will be revealed in about a week, hopefully!
Anyways, I appreciate you lovelies reading the complications of my mind in my life. Stay tuned for the new changes!