closer


Your baby blues stared at me, locked onto my eyes. My usual impulse to look away 
escaped me and a new one took it's place - I didn't want to move. 
There was something different in your eyes, as if 
you truly wanted to know me. 
Immediately, my mind began to wander, my heart began to beat faster.

A feeling I'm all too familiar with started electrifying beneath my skin. 
The air between us grew quiet as I leaned in closer, something magnetic pulling me into your energy. 
But something kept me from reaching you. A heavy awareness of fear set and sank into my heart, 
spreading a shadow of anxiety and paranoia all around me.

I want you so much closer,
but my own doubts about myself are what is eating my feelings for you up.
So I just sit there, across from you,
hoping that you want to be closer to me too.